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Country: United States
State: Texas
Metro: Dallas
Birthday: 10/8/1986
Gender: Male


Interests: Street Racing, Swordsmanship, Anime,videogames
Expertise: Sworsmanship,Philosophy
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Member Since: 1/3/2005

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Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Its very unoften when im inspired to write something like this, as i never really choose to voice me feelings too much. But it seemed appropriate this time. To simply show my feelings and nothing more. It's not often im moved so strongly.

Where is your mind ,and where are your manners? What if i told you nothing else mattered? Give it my sin, that bore within my soul, would you be so seated to say, I deserved it so?
If i was not to love, then be it so wrong. That everything fallen apart goes within song. For one given embrace, the blade would have slain, to feel once again, what shall never be again.
In rememberence, I am to follow, of a story so perfect, with a feeling so hollow. that is love, without reason, ridden with treason. and for all the girls in the world, id give up again.
I knew not what i had, and it leaves me in thought, why does heart so feel so heavily wrought, why does thine sting, leave such a bitter kiss,
upon the lips of steel, to all young maidens miss. where nothing penetrates, but your single love, to leave me in thy hold, like a mail covered glove.
and leave me upon your door step so warm an embrace, to see you again, upon the eyes of anothers chase. What we call destiny, can never be forgotten, its by this hour
that is what they say, to never be forgotten, but never be in memory, of you nor I, on any given day. but without simple thought, still feelings are felt, as the past yet not forget,
what the heart chooses to remember, and by this i say, if you ever choose to let me in, ill love you beyond, any other way, but only by perchance, and only by choice, would I ever choose to hear once again your sweet heavenly voice,
for you are to be with that who you love, but my blade shall remain written with my prayer above. for you, be this a battle that i cannot fight, it is only by your decision shall my candle light, the fire of a flame that will refuse to go out, long after the wick and wax runneth out.
for to remain with you, even if not be it destiny, id choose to be star crossed, by your side, for all eternity. my light, my fire, my single white flower. who rests so lovingly in the hands of another. and me in the stains, of a stories remain, be it blade by blood, that i bathe again.
and my heart no longer pieceth back for any one. but for you, so silently it remains beating underneath the sun of your blaze. and i regret in anguish for ever letting go, the single gift to me that comforts my flow, but left in consequence, i am at fault,
love me, love me not, im back to the call. where ever you be, wherever i go. my love for you shall always flow. question not, speak not, and enjoy thine life. maketh another man such a fine wife. as ill give on my end, to protect your life, and let it be in my scars. the path chosen by sight
I cant regret, for what i once felt, would surely bring down all the stars to a melt. and if you ever choose, behind your vail to look back, ill be in embrace, mailed in all black. waiting for you. my flower by crystal stream, i hope you live your life, as if you were living a dream. in love. but whatever you choose, ill never regret,
never hold enmity, never forget. the nights spent alongside your glow, with your memory, my heart still shall flow.

Though everything is good now, I guess im just trying to say. I miss you. but be happy. and enjoy your life.


Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Alright so lets recap. For one, im a myspace kid now, i hardly ever use xanga, just now i thought about revamping it so here it is
Im in college now, just at north lake, but seems like im taking a step towards the next phase in my life. I have a beautiful sword
of 2.6 shaku in 1050 steel on the way in the mail ,highly anticipating its arrival. I say im in works of selling my car, but ive been saying that for so long nobody really believes me anymore,
but actually ive been closer lately then i have in a while. So, it looks like it might actually happen. Im getting my band back together, and i have some experimental trip hop that is going to shock this world. hopefully make me alot of money
while allowing me to be remembered for my writing. I'll be starting mideval times either this week, or mid febuaury as a squire on hs way to be a knight. Everyone at midieval is really cool, and they like me, so, seems like it will be a bit of a funner job then my current. Though the southlake crew great. there is just no money to be made there anymore.
Last relationship didnt work out, but its ok, no problem, no regrets. still a very sweet girl that i hang out with very often. shes so in love with me, i wish i could have been what she dreamed of. but i need to find my happiness. its something i have to do, its something i swore i'd do. So no current girl situation right now. kind of strange, bit lonely. whatever.
got my mind back, so im not hurting. does seem empty though. hmm. all and all, everything is in process and moving on to the next phase. lots of friends now. lots of parties. when i get the new car and the sword in the mail, and my new job. everything will be awesome. but, this planet is still going to hell. troubled times these are. doesnt look long now. but if i have to wait, im set for a while. if not, then lets roll with this bitch. over all im feeling pretty damn good, just might could use a girl in my life. its so much easier that way, i dont have to hear myself think.
I'll prob start using this as a current journal, where my myspace is used mostly to meet people, so check back to see whats going on. ltr -Cloud oh btw im straight rockin the 6 pack now, if id get off my ass and work out as much as i need to id be at an 8 pack. soon with that though. thinking about cutting my hair, dyed it back black. kinda fried. i think i look older with it short.. i dunno. do tell what you think if anyone chooses to read.


Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Oh yeah, im mentally fried. I dont know what to do, it all hurts to bad...


Saturday, July 30, 2005

Well...what can i say. i met a girl. shes pretty frickin amazing. pretty much everything i'd want in a girl. her voice is so soft and feminine. she stands at 5'3 with dark brown hair. she wears all kinds of fun black and metal. and its needless to say, we are involved in some stuff together. she dreams endlessly about a boy named cloud. ;) oh how we wonder huh? XX no drugs, no alcohol. im on my way to mideval times and get a good paying job. im also seeing her tommorrow. and will end up following up on how much she wanted to kiss me tonight. lives kinda far away...but its a worth while drive. she dreams of being safe, and remembers cloud making her safe. id' hate to corrupt and complicate her life, but it seems its already complicated. she just needs someone to help her. seems to be what i do. but what can i say... i like her. shes extremely intelligent, wit sharp as a blade, and we have very meaningful intellectual conversations. shes also XX clean no drugs no alcohol. and in to practically everything i do. she likes anime, and even knew some i didnt. she likes weapons and has her own dagger. and shes cute..very..very...cute. well hot actually but yeah. memories lead us to wierd places, sometimes our heads to the clouds in the sky. and she found me.


Monday, July 25, 2005

Well here we are at a quaint little stand still. Its 5:23 and i cant bloody sleep because god knows what i will dream of, and i know it wont fare welll with my psyche so lets just stay up late and wrtie insane blogs in a xanga only very few will read. Why will very few read it? Well mostly because i dont meet or associate with people very well so most find that a major turn off. It's not their fault, nor is it mine, i just cant communicate well you can say. It seems the times i do communicate it ends up in complete shambals. Seems what i say makes sense the first time but not the second time. "Who the fuck are you?" wtf mate. one of these days we just decide that those chinese sons of bitches are going down. I need to meet some people, and i need to find more to do. Life is a bit to boring right now. Im not looking for a philosophical quest, been on too many of those, just invite me to a party or something. shit i dunno. sit here long enough and maybe ill start spitting out poetry again :shrugs: There really isnt much to say. Im single and it will prob stay that way. Yes i want a girl, but i have a huge emotional closeness issue. I dont like people, but i get bored. The things im interested in. you wont get. Im sorry, it sucks. but hey im good for alot of things. like opening cans, saving lives. helping you with problems. sex.. u know. this seems like a pathetic entry. but its really not, just me rambling on about bs im thinking. im about to have a good job, alot of money, and go to college. whoo. just someone please bloody entertain me. show me there is something worth doing in this world. " Oh those wave men, they dont eat every day, but when they do, they seem to really enjoy it more then the others!"



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